Tuesday, April 15, 2014

4-15-14


Some days are not all rosey-rosey.
I wake up in a funk...I (physically) don't feel well... it decides to SNOW... 
I find another huge box of my art supplies and such that are completely ruined from the flooding we had a month ago... my art journals... books from my dad... old and funky papers...all ruined and in some sort of moldy brick-like block...
I try to make things... and I just feel like it's no use... that everything I make is horrible...
I say the wrong things to the wrong people... 
I try to please too many people and the end result is that no one is happy...
...even my dog is avoiding me today.

It's days like these (days, weeks, months... you get the idea)... 
that I need to force myself to remember that it will indeed get better....
and that it's probably not as bad as I think it is... 
I just feel like I am doing everything wrong.

I have no idea how to fix this... or if it is even fix-able.
And yet... I must try.


Things I am Grateful for Today:

-the world didn't implode
-the mortgage is paid for another month
-even though I didn't do my homework completely for tonight's art class... and even though what I did get done essentially sucked... the instructor didn't boot me out of the class
-we have bananas (and according to Dr. Who, "bananas are good.")
-as far as I know, nothing else in the studio is still soaked in flood water (I've been afraid to look at my photos in the big totes though)
-the taxes are done and submitted
-I haven't killed any of the houseplants; in fact, the 2 poinsettias gifted to us at Christmas look wonderful
-I've lost weight... approx 15 pounds since the end of December
-apple blossoms...I love them. The photo at the top of this post is from April 15th last year. Today it is snowing... but I have faith that in just a little while... we will have apple blossoms blooming again
-and like waiting for this year's apple blossoms to come forth... I need to remember that good things will come... even after craptastic days like these...



(These are some earrings I made last night as an homage to the beginning of Fishing Season here in PA. 
They are made from vintage fishing lure pieces, and some glass fish beads.)


(And this is a gorgeous Gerbera daisy that is in a bouquet on my kitchen table ... 
a gift from my mom in celebration of me helping/being a part of the new Art Center in town
that just had it's Grande Opening this past weekend.)